Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Keeping House

There are a few (and I mean a very few times) when I'm actually a little bit ahead of housework enough to fold a load clothes as they come out of the dryer. It is on these days, that I feel such a deep sense of accomplishment. It's a moment of feeling like I'm actually swimming instead of just treading water.

Today was one of those days. And as I folded that one (glorious one) warm load of laundry, the absurdity of taking delight and even a feeling of accomplishment in a load of laundry hit me kind of right in the face. My first though was "How silly! It's a load of laundry--not a big deal! My how things have changed!" Then, such a thanksgiving and peace settled over me because "My how things have changed!" and it's all because GOD changed ME!!! And, He truly has used the simple things to confound the wise (1 Corinthians 1:27).

You see, I'm a type A kind of girl. For whatever reason, growing up, I've always felt driven to do and be the best--to win, to answer first, to get it all right. I didn't just want to be in the group; I wanted to lead the group.
It was a lot of pressure, and I put it on myself. I thrived on that pressure.


When God filled me with the Holy Ghost, He had to start working on that part of me because while achievement can be good--it can't be your God. It was a little here, a little there and looking back I can see now some pretty pivotal moments where He was gently guiding me to look less at my resume and more at Him to find worth.

It is in being a mom, however, that He has taught me the most. I think the hardest part of being a mom is the constant sacrificing of self and, because of the purity of the offering, the anonymity of it all. No one tells you about that part of it. Yes, you know there will be late nights and early mornings but mommas and daddies do a lot for their kiddos that no one ever sees....no one but the Father.

My mom made it look easy. She has always said that she would rather be behind the scenes helping, anyway. That's what she has always been for us--behind the scenes...helping, giving, sacrificing.

But that was precisely the thing that was tough for me--getting off the stage--digging in behind the scenes, handing out the props, putting on the costumes, handing over the microphone....getting ME out of the way.

So, today when I took delight in laundry, I remembered what God has done. I remembered that success isn't in my career or my list of degrees or affiliations or awards. Success is in the LORD; success is in my home.

Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Psalms 37:4


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God Bless!

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

A Thankful Moment

We live in a fast-paced, busy world, and just because I'm a stay-at-home mom doesn't mean I don't get caught up in it. We try to live intentionally at our house, but the truth is most days are a crazy jumble of "have-to's," "need-to's," and "never-gonna-get-to's." There are quiet moments, however, that I think God sends to catch my attention and take my breath away with the absolute wonder of the everyday miracles in my life.
This morning was one of those moments.
We were running a little late, and I was saying hurried "I love you's" to my sweet school girls in the drop-off line. As I was giving kisses (and driving), I kept hearing a little voice in the back saying, "me too!" I listened just a minute and realized my littlest girl was telling her sisters she loved them, too. She would miss them today, too. I stopped everyone and said, "Girls, Joy loves you too."
Gracie leaned over to hug her baby sister and Joy said, "Gacie. Love. Fend fend evev."
This was one of those moments because in "joyese" that meant "Gracie, I love you my friend forever." What sweet words to start my girls' school day---their baby sister was reminding them that she loved them and would be their friend forever. I think anyone could have a good day knowing they had such support behind them!
It made me so thankful for God's love to us and the love He gives us for our brothers and sisters in the Lord. I've got people that God has put in my life that are in my corner, loving me, praying for me, and that will be my friends "evev" (forever). I hope that I can be that kind of sister, too, both to my real siblings and those God has given me.
And to think I learned all that from a two year old! God is good.
"Let brotherly love continue" Hebrews 13:1.


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God Bless!

Thursday, October 09, 2014

It's been one of THOSE days

It all started in the wee hours of the morning, (you know that moment when you're finally really sleeping good? Yeah--then) when 2/3 of my children decided they needed to see me in the middle of the night. 😏
After everyone's toes were covered and warm (yes that was one of the complaints), I literally jumped back into bed while mentally calculating the precious minutes of sleep I could get before my husband had to get up for work. Now, granted, I'm not always bright-eyed and bushy tailed (ahem conscious) when my husband leaves but today, he was headed to the airport. That is not my idea of a great day. 😏 (again)
Then, after the mad dash of morning routine, we pull up to the school and my reluctant kindergartener cries because not only does she have to go to school today, she also has to go to the restroom RIGHT NOW! 😏 My ever helpful second grader promises to bring her to the restroom and my kindergartener (you guessed it) reluctantly gets out of the car.

And you know what? I could go on about the messes that were made today, the behavior challenges that arose, and the crushing exhaustion that comes from being the only adult while my husband is away, but as I think back on this morning, I see something at that moment that makes me too thankful to whine anymore. Big sister puts her arm around little sister and helps her into the school to start her day. That's a good...no, a great thing! 😄
I later found out that my oldest risked being tardy (something she hates) in order to take care of her sister. And it made me feel like maybe just maybe it wasn't such a bad day after all.

Maybe if we look closely we'll see that in THOSE days God is still showering us with blessings that we overlook because we're too focused on all the things that didn't go like we wanted them to. It made me think of the verse in Zechariah 13:9
I will bring the third part through the fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them as gold is tried: they shall call on my name, and I will hear them: I will say, It is my people: and they shall say, The Lord is my God.
When we are going through a "fiery" day, maybe God is trying to skim out the impurities to show us the treasure that is really there. At any rate, if THOSE days make us call out to HIM, isn't comforting to know that he'll put his arm around us and help us through it?

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God Bless!

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

To blog or not to blog

Everyone does it....that in itself seems reason for me not to add my voice to the blogosphere. What could I possibly add to the discussion? As often as I've argued against the notion, I am "just a mom." I'm not super organized, hyper crafty, or extremely unique. On most days, I wonder if I'm even very effective. So what do I have to blog about?
Yet it's when that question screams the loudest at me that I remember the parable of the talents (Matthew 25:14-30), and if I bury my little talent in the earth (along with the diplomas under my bed), then what answer will I give my Master when He reminds me that I'm called to the kingdom for such a time as this (Esther 4:14)?
So, I'll give it a try. Maybe you'll read it and maybe you won't, but I pray that if you do, you'll find the extraordinary hope and peace and grace, faith, and joy that God offers every day as we do the ordinary stuff of being "just a mom."

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God Bless!

Monday, January 07, 2013

Matching Pajamas and the Pursuit of Perfection

Happy New Year, everyone!
 I was putting away laundry today because apparently that's one of my new favorite pastimes, and I realized how pleased I was that my pajamas had been matched, folded, and put away in sets. Matching pajamas makes me feel good. In fact, I'm a little ashamed to admit that wearing unmatched pajamas makes me grumpy.  Joy was taking a nap, Grace was playing at her cousin's, and Faith was in school, so I had some time on my hands and started thinking.....
Why do matching pajamas make me feel so good. Then, it hit me! It's just another example of my desire  to do things the RIGHT WAY....in short, it's the perfectionist in me coming out.
Being a perfectionist is a good thing sometimes...it pushes me to do my best, to keep working when I'm tired, to go the second mile for people.  In fact, God asks us to seek perfection when He says, "Be ye holy as I am holy" (1 Peter 1:16) and "press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 3:14).
However, this push for perfection is probably my greatest source of stress because with three little girls, church activities, a house to clean, meals to cook, activities to do, and places to be, I just can't get it all done all perfectly all the time (even with my wonderful husband who helps me a lot).  Typing that sentence makes me tired! The truth is, I'm not perfect and I can't be.  Even when God said to be holy, He was only asking us to reflect His holiness (NOT OUR OWN). It's on the days when I finally throw up my hands and admit in prayer, "God I can't do this on my own, I need help" that I'm able to understand what God wanted all along. You see, He doesn't care about matching pajamas, but He does care about me.  He sees all the striving that I do and then when I've run around in circles long enough, He gently says to me:


My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

So, in the new year, I'm going keep wearing my matching pajamas and keep pursuing perfection (Philippians 4:13), but I'm going to focus on the fact that perfection can only be found in Jesus--He is the perfect one and His grace is sufficient for me!

Friday, October 12, 2012

It's Gonna Be Alright

Well, since my last post, a lot has happened here at the Courville House.  God has definitely blessed us with the birth of our sweet baby Joy and held us up as we got back to [the new] normal.

 The most recent event, however, was a trip to the emergency room for Faith Tuesday night.  She had fallen (while pretending to be a cowgirl--but I'll save that for a different blog) and cut her chin right below the dimple. The cut was deep and bleeding a lot, and my little girl was hurt and UPSET. I know it was the grace of God that prevented me from over-reacting, but we knew she needed medical attention. Jake was almost home from work, so my plan was to leave with Faith as soon as he got here. But, she said, "No, Mommy, I need Daddy to come, too." So, Jake and I loaded Faith up, got my mom to watch our younger two, and headed to the ER.  All we could really do besides pray and be by her was tell her, "It's gonna be alright; you're gonna be okay."At that moment, she couldn't really grasp the fact that everything would return to normal because it clearly wasn't alright. She was hurting and scared and more than a little worked up. Thank God, they were able to glue her chin together and we headed home.  Today, she's got a little "boo boo" but guess what, she is alright.

Aside from giving us something to write in her baby book, this experience taught me a few things, but it took me until Wednesday morning to really get what God was trying to say in all of it. I was driving to a doctor's appointment for Grace and Joy and singing along with a song by the McRaes called "Alright" (available on iTunes).  In the song it says:
IT'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT, ALRIGHT
EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT
AS LONG AS GOD IS IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE
EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT

(VERSE 1)
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE MAY BRING
SOMETIMES I'LL CRY AND SOMETIMES I'LL SING
FOR THE SAKE OF THE CAUSE I'LL HAVE TO STAND UP AND FIGHT
BUT IF GOD IS IN CONTROL EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT

All of a sudden, everything kind of clicked, and two things stuck out to me about Tuesday night's events.
1. Faith wanted her Daddy to come with us to the hospital.
2. We were there to tell her "It's gonna be alright."

The Bible says in John 16:33,
"These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world."
We are going to have problems. We're going to make mistakes, and like Faith, fall down and be injured sometimes. If all we look at is the problem, we'll never ever walk in the peace and joy and victory that God intended for His people.  

But, as long as we're asking for our Heavenly Daddy to be with us, He will be there when life hurts us and knocks us down. And when the devil tries to make you focus on the problem remember that God overcame the world and has given us a promise that everything will be alright. Romans 8:28 says,
"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."

 I don't know what you all are going through right this minute, but I feel like God needs you to know that WHATEVER it is...whether it's "tribulation" or aggravation or just life, He has it under control. More than that, He wants to use it for your GOOD and it's part of His PURPOSE for our life!!
We just have to ask our Daddy to come with us and trust what He says because He says, "It's gonna be alright."

Love you all.
Amanda

Friday, July 27, 2012

Stand Still

Exodus 14:13
And Moses said unto the people, Fear ye not, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, which he shall shew you today...



As most of you know, standing still is not something that I do easily or readily. If I had come to the Red Sea that day with the children of Israel, I instantly would have jumped into action mode, crafting a boat out of clothes, teaching my camel to swim, something. It is for precisely that reason that God frequently has to remind me that He is in control of EVERY situation and He will provide the answer WITHOUT my help.



That is where I find myself today---standing still and waiting on God. Here I am with a million things to do (in addition to normal life) to prepare for the start of school for Faith, Grace's birthday, and Joy's impending arrival and guess what?!? I am in the second week of semi-bed rest! But, the minute I started to fret about all of it, God reminded me of this verse and a song that says, "Stand still and let God move." I'm thankful for that because He sent it right when I needed to hear it. Even when I can't do...actually especially when I can't---God can!



I think that's where we all get bogged down sometimes, we get our eyes off of the fact that we serve the one true, living God with whom nothing is too hard, and we start focusing on what we need/want/have to do. That's not living in submission to Him. In fact, it may even be sin because we aren't trusting Him to be our everything. This reminded me of the Bible passage that God originally dealt with me about when He gave me the idea for this Bible study blog with you guys.



The passage is I Kings 19:11-18
11 And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake:

12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.

13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?

14 And he said, I have been very jealous for the Lord God of hosts: because the children of Israel have forsaken thy covenant, thrown down thine altars, and slain thy prophets with the sword; and I, even I only, am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.

15 And the Lord said unto him, Go, return on thy way to the wilderness of Damascus: and when thou comest, anoint Hazael to be king over Syria:

16 And Jehu the son of Nimshi shalt thou anoint to be king over Israel: and Elisha the son of Shaphat of Abelmeholah shalt thou anoint to be prophet in thy room.

17 And it shall come to pass, that him that escapeth the sword of Hazael shall Jehu slay: and him that escapeth from the sword of Jehu shall Elisha slay.

18 Yet I have left me seven thousand in Israel, all the knees which have not bowed unto Baal, and every mouth which hath not kissed him.




Elijah was all upset about the Ahab and Jezebel and he felt all alone, so we was hiding in a cave, pouting (Ever done that before????) God spoke to Him and said, "Why are you doing this? Go STAND at the mountain and see what I have to say." Sometimes all we can see is the problem and we're hiding out and waiting on this huge show from Heaven to give us the answer. Instead, what God wants is for us to stand still and listen, so He can work it out.

Just remember that today, and I will too.
Love you and praying for you all in Jesus name,
Amanda

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Grace Jolie

Our newest baby girl!

Grace Jolie Courville

Praise God! As of 1240, we have a beautiful baby girl. Grace Jolie
weighs 6 # 15 oz. and is17.75" long. Mom is doing great too! We'll put
a picture up at http://acourville.blogspot.com/ within the hour!

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God Bless!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Praise God!

God did just what he said! Jake and I are expecting our first baby!! This is such a miracle, and I know this is a child of promise and purpose. 
We're so excited! Keep checking for more info from all of us!!
Psalms 37:4 "Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart."

Friday, October 20, 2006

Great Job!

Due to popular demand (from SHHS Homecoming) Amanda announced the Senior Football players tonight! Great job Amanda!